I never believed wholeheartedly that God truly does have a purpose for me, because in the midst of trying to find my way back in my relationship with Christ, I became even MORE
confused and MORE
broken. I was blinded by my desperate need to find “answers”
from a worldly point of view, that I couldn’t see how He has been working behind-the-scenes of my life this whole time. Instead of surrendering
my life and trusting Him, I was controlling
it based solely on my own feelings and by trying to follow worldly standards.
My purpose in life is still a little unclear, don’t get me wrong. But every time I doubt my future, whether it be through words of encouragement from friends, testimonies, or sermons/devotions, He reassures
me of His great plans “to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future.” It’s okay
to be broken, and it’s okay
to be lost because finding who we are starts from ”embarking in an exciting journey of experiencing God’s forgiveness, mercy and discovering God’s love through our lives. God was working, is working and will continually work in our lives”, as I learnt and was reminded on Sunday.